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| Me: | *texts to renee* the guy next to us looks like that Rob Patt guy. |
| Renee: | *texts back* OMG HE DOES! |
| Guys Mother: | He looks like that Edward Cullan fellow hey? |
| Me: | We were THAT obvious? |
| Guy: | Yeah. Although i get it all the time. |
| Me: | Kewl well we're team Jacob. |
| Renee: | Yeah, Edwards like a creepy pale stalker with a blood fetish. |
| *we leave* | |
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| hahahahahhaaha : | D how very friendly you are. LOL |
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| Lol yeah we can be pretty horrible but they didnt mind! In fact they laughed. : | ) Which is good cus i found out later that he works with my mum! eek. :P |
I don’t know what the future holds, i don’t understand love or faith, i can’t picture where this will lead and i don’t know what keeps your heart beating.
All i know is right now i’m breathing and thats what i’m holding onto.
Fucking fuck fuck FUUUUCK!
Why does he do that? Like….really, why? It’s as if there’s this check list of ‘ways to hurt bee’ that he’s got in his…beautifu…i mean stupid hands. fuck.
Anyway…dinner time. I hope he feels horrible and sends himself to a naughty corner or something. I’ve had enough of this shit.
There is a bracelet tree in my backyard. It’s growing day by day…bigger and bigger. Almost like the watermelon in the fridge but thats not as crazy as the colour of the leaves. Purple and blue? Crazy trees…
| Me: | *texts to renee* the guy next to us looks like that Rob Patt guy. |
| Renee: | *texts back* OMG HE DOES! |
| Guys Mother: | He looks like that Edward Cullan fellow hey? |
| Me: | We were THAT obvious? |
| Guy: | Yeah. Although i get it all the time. |
| Me: | Kewl well we're team Jacob. |
| Renee: | Yeah, Edwards like a creepy pale stalker with a blood fetish. |
| *we leave* |
D: Let me inside your head...
| Dennis: | Tell me what made today bad? |
| Me: | Room 185, old spice, coke, smoke, Port Royal tobacco, black moths, memories, smells, security, pain. |
| Dennis: | What made today good? |
| Me: | air, smiles, friendship, financial freedom, grandma, Europe, music, gossip, coffee, spongebob, special hugs from chefs....and the realization that the pain is lingering but fading, fading everyday. |
| Dennis: | There's the Bec i know. Float on. |
| Me: | That has more meaning then you know. |
| Dennis: | Good. Things have meanings and meanings can hurt, memories can hurt but the hurt means you're human, it means you're still moving, still growing and you're hearts still beating. Every hurt has a silver lining. The hard part is finding it. |
| Me: | Deep. |
| Dennis: | Fuuuuck you. |
Dear Tumblr,
The sun hid today and made the world feel dark and soul-less. Surviving didn’t take as much as i had predicted at roughly 7am this morning when i had missed my bus and started freaking out. Luckily my mother is amazing and drove me in, all for the low cost of a cherry ripe chocolate. :)
Room 185 on D2 really got me down. See, i used to know this person who loved the Beatles and room 185 was littered with so much Beatles merch, i seriously thought i’d stepped into a twilight zone. What made it worse? Old spice on the bathroom counter. I couldn’t breath, the smell was too heart breaking and i just wasn’t ready to smell him or face that so i left it. I wish i could say i’m not still hurting…i want to be stronger.
On a better note, Europe is looking promising. :D Renee and i are saving like crazy…even ice cream is taking a backseat :O lol Pretty sure we’ve decided on the Contiki European Adventurer Tour with the Greek Island add on. Thats 31 days in total. SO excited! And then afterwards, America and Canada. I’m working so much now so i can actually afford this! lol I love money..
Anyway, I might wrap this up and let you know i won’t be posting tomorrow at all. Renee and i are heading into town tomorrow night and i have work so i just paid for a room at work so we don’t have to worry about getting home. I’ll post pictures and a full re-cap if anyone cares! Goodnight lovelies and remember to keep smiling, i love you all. :) xoxo
@Chel - I just wrote on your formspring. Yeah…i totally just saw New Moon and let me just say..i’m pretty positive it was just a massive jizz fest in that cinema. :P
@Alexa - YOU’RE SO PWERTY GIRL!!! :P i adore you and the hair :) Omg just…never change, ever. kthanx.
@Jamie - I love how different and unique you are. :) Craziness = beauty in my books. xo
@Sterling - I can play piano…well i did and i think i still can. I’d be rusty but maybe i should give it a shot. What cha think?? Btw, you really do seem like a great bf from this angle. :) Keep on smilin’ hun.
@Everyone - Work is keeping me from Tumblr. :( I have so much to say then i come on finally and i’m so tired that i fall asleep ON my fucking laptop. Geez what a loser… lol
I hope you get caught in the fucking rain and your cereal goes soggy.
